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Musings of a Mad Girl: What's the Word?
Feb. 8th, 2012 08:32 amIt's strange, but I've realized something. When someone comes in and makes an effort to get to know me...when someone tries to be my friend...I begin to worry excessively over them. Even when they're not around.
Tammy told me a long time ago that I need to be very careful how much I use my power. And I really am being careful! I just...want to make sure everyone's okay.
Sometimes I watch Anna make dinner for her patients...you know, a few days before she will. Just to make sure she has the right things...Sometimes I walk over to the Clinic to leave a basket of things she may need to prepare it. She always looks so happy when she cooks.
Ms. Bri is there to, sometimes. She seems happy, if not spacey. (Yes, Journal. Present Tense. Bri is only sleeping somewhere. She'll wake up and come home soon. I know it.)
I watch Mr. Ben in his shop sometimes. I wish I could get up the nerve to go back and help him organize. I don't want to scare away his customers. He seems to have a lot (although I'm just guessing).
I can't see that much of Mr. Hero, but he seems to be okay most of the time. He's at the Bar a lot...or maybe that's where I keep "seeing" him because that's what he talks about...Note to self: find a better way to watch on Mr. Hero.
I use my vision to follow Mr. Ward sometimes. To make sure he's safe. I...can't always do this. I don't know why. Sometimes he's veiled. Something about him makes my power all fuzzy. I need to practice. Or maybe I should talk to him about it.
Mr. Merrick seems alright too...at least he did before the People...I mean...Before he went to the To...KEEP. It's called the KEEP. I call it the Tower. Same difference, in the end. I haven't looked for him since. I keep trying but my fear makes me blind...
It's awkward to be blind in both Sight and seeing...
I haven't sought out Ser Marcelo, but maybe I should. I feel so bad about what I did to Merrick, even though he says it's okay...
And finally, adding to this list, Mr. Haunt. Something terrible may happy to him (I drew the Tower on him...). I need to watch out for him.
What's the word for constantly watching out for people you care about, even if they don't know? I'm so very worried about them....
Tammy told me a long time ago that I need to be very careful how much I use my power. And I really am being careful! I just...want to make sure everyone's okay.
Sometimes I watch Anna make dinner for her patients...you know, a few days before she will. Just to make sure she has the right things...Sometimes I walk over to the Clinic to leave a basket of things she may need to prepare it. She always looks so happy when she cooks.
Ms. Bri is there to, sometimes. She seems happy, if not spacey. (Yes, Journal. Present Tense. Bri is only sleeping somewhere. She'll wake up and come home soon. I know it.)
I watch Mr. Ben in his shop sometimes. I wish I could get up the nerve to go back and help him organize. I don't want to scare away his customers. He seems to have a lot (although I'm just guessing).
I can't see that much of Mr. Hero, but he seems to be okay most of the time. He's at the Bar a lot...or maybe that's where I keep "seeing" him because that's what he talks about...Note to self: find a better way to watch on Mr. Hero.
I use my vision to follow Mr. Ward sometimes. To make sure he's safe. I...can't always do this. I don't know why. Sometimes he's veiled. Something about him makes my power all fuzzy. I need to practice. Or maybe I should talk to him about it.
Mr. Merrick seems alright too...at least he did before the People...I mean...Before he went to the To...KEEP. It's called the KEEP. I call it the Tower. Same difference, in the end. I haven't looked for him since. I keep trying but my fear makes me blind...
It's awkward to be blind in both Sight and seeing...
I haven't sought out Ser Marcelo, but maybe I should. I feel so bad about what I did to Merrick, even though he says it's okay...
And finally, adding to this list, Mr. Haunt. Something terrible may happy to him (I drew the Tower on him...). I need to watch out for him.
What's the word for constantly watching out for people you care about, even if they don't know? I'm so very worried about them....
